I've had a very busy and stressful week, which included a car crash and doing a painting. Painting was actually some time out but I don't have an art studio, so paints everywhere in my bedroom become more stress, so they have to go away until I'm ready to do another painting.
In the middle of this, I was notified that I was awarded a Red Ribbon for my memoir, Bipolar Courage: Are You Sure You're Not Autistic?
0 Comments
Good news. I have decided to go semi-professional and part-time, self-employed with my art. Art has been a passionate hobby for years and I want to take the next step offering original paintings and fine prints for sale. Aiming for quality, unique art at reasonable prices (no AI generated stuff). After doing some research, I will focus on a New Zealand market at this stage (to avoid shipping and taxation nightmares; and to have high assurance of quality). I have started a New Zealand-themed collection. A New Zealand website is coming soon. Art journeyAs I am prone to burnout, and I have disabilities which impact on my daily functioning, I will take my time, building up a collection of original artworks at my own pace. Also, to enjoy the process and not to compromise on quality.
In recent years, I focussed on process art, to help me to manage significant mental health struggles. I've had two solo art-as-therapy exhibitions and taken part in community exhibitions. I have no plans for further solo exhibitions at this stage (very stressful) but I may take part in group exhibitions in the future. I am currently researching website options, whether to stay with the website builder I've used for over a decade, or to switch. Unfortunately, most of the websites with e-commerce options are expensive. It will probably be less stressful for me to stay with a familiar website builder, even though it doesn't have lots of bells and whistles. I will be spending this month building a New Zealand-based website and hopefully have a few artworks up to start with soon. My test prints of Fantail Rose are on their way from a fine art printer (superior print quality to home printing), before I finalise what formats and sizes to offer. I can remember painting in kindergarten and visual arts has been my strength over other forms of art (including writing). I also enjoy photography, even though I don't have super-expensive equipment. I take my own reference pics to inspire my paintings. Now, I can take the photographs of my art. Also, to prepare them for print, with skills I gained when working as an assistant for photographers in the publishing industry years ago. I was invited last year by a local professional artist to take part in group exhibitions. That is less pressure than solo exhibitions as I could enter just a few pieces. I have to say it's a huge compliment to be invited by an established professional artist. I am also grateful to the local art community and an arts community grant to help make my 'ridiculous goal' of my first art exhibition possible (with prices by tender, as I was too scared people would just my art as 'not good enough'). The reason I had a second exhibition was to price my art publicly for the first time (visitors said I priced too low). I've sold some art, given some away, destroyed some. It's been part of the therapeutic process for me. I have had tuition in oil painting and acrylic painting. I am not keen on the fumes, mess and slow-drying that goes with oil painting, so I specialise in acrylics on canvas. In recent years, I have focused on writing books, inspired by my experiences. I have one more book left in me, I think, called Soar Purpose, which I think will take at least a few years to complete. I haven't given much attention to marketing my books, so they are buried under hundreds of thousands of other books. Thank you to a reader in Germany for recently buying both my books. My creative studio for my painting, writing and editing is my cramped bedroom. Currently, I am still in the 'hobby' category as far as taxation is concerned, although I want to start making a regular income towards self-employment. I have big dreams and last year, I trademarked Soar Purpose, which is my banner for my creative endeavours. I recently invested in a better quality camera, to take sharper images of my art, for fine art reproductions. Anyone who has seen my art 'in real life' has immediately remarked how much more vibrant they are compared to the images (that should change now I have a better camera for fine art reproductions). If you would like to be included on an email list to alert you when I have a new artwork available, let me know via my contact form. (Reminder: at this stage, I will be focusing on New Zealand only for my visual art, mainly because of the practicalities). Update: I've felt both excited and quite anxious deciding to make a go of this. Anxious because of the fear of failure and also I don't like the business side of things. I've had a few small businesses in the past, and they did pretty well part-time until I burnt out each time. So I know I have the skills and knowledge. I am also a bit anxious that I might kill another one of my passions, attempting to turn it into a business. The previous small home businesses were based on teaching music then caring for pets. I have grown a lot since then, with more self-awareness, so I'm hoping this time will be different. One thing I have learned, is to stay the hell away from commenting on anything political when running a business. Now, I need to try figure out how to build another website from scratch (it's always like starting over, even though I've built half a dozen websites before). Making some enquiries with a tax agent, I'm pretty sure my government now considers me to be in business, even though I've made a loss with my startup costs (this can be claimed as expenses and get a tax refund from my other income). My test fine art prints arrived and I'm very pleased with them. Now I have another website to build. Further Update: And we are launched. New Zealand-based website to buy fine art prints of Xanthe's art is now live: www.soarpurpose.nz Xanthe Wyse Will try keep this short as I have a pile of stuff out on my bedroom floor (sorting) and there is an open home tomorrow.
After a three-year battle, I finally won against Accident Compensation Corporation (ACC) for a lump sum payment for my mental injury of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). I'm not going to go into detail in this post, as I haven't even read the doctor's report yet. Although it is satisfying that the doctor who assessed in my favour used to work for ACC. After seeing me on a 'good' day, at my 'best.' After years of therapy. Going through journals to extract anything of use to my creative projects before burning the journals. Came across something I was amused at so sharing it here. Not many people know this story. I did the painting because I was upset about a situation and telling myself to blank it out (I'm the sunflower).
Just revisting some journal entries from five years ago, when I had my first solo art exhibition (which I pitched as an art as therapy exhibition). I'd set a 'ridiculous goal' of an exhibition when I was severely unwell and struggling. My main diagnoses are bipolar disorder and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). I still have permanent disabililty after treatment.
I did the painting below, More than Good Enough, during that exhibition. It expressed the mixed feelings of the exhibition process. I didn't put prices on the paintings, as I didn't want people to judge. One of the main reasons I did the exhibition is because I didn't feel good enough and that my art wasn't good enough (in fact, most of my art in the past ended up at the dump). I've actually been a writer for many years, but most of it hasn't seen the light of day. I've even destroyed a lot of what I have written. The raw stuff (journals etc) can inspire books later. I spend years writing my books, as I am processing plus working with disabilties that affect my cognition and memory.
I had some space last night to go through some of the extracts I'd torn from journals from 2017-2019. The rest of the 8 journals were burned recently. A tradition in my family was to watch the old home movies Dad recorded, back in the days of film. We used to crowd around the tiny fridge to see the image projected onto it. Or in the lounge, with the old movies (without audio) were projected onto a rollup screen.
Dad recorded home movies from over 15 to 50+ years ago, switching technology a few times. Dad died a few weeks ago but what he captured, lives on. Note: this is not legal advice.
I was going to write these tips at the end of my previous blog post, You Need to Make Your Will. But as I tend to have a lot to say, I decided to make a fresh blog post. I am a very intuitive and visionary person and I had already thought about this recently, before my Dad died. Yes, I can be melancholic at times. Your writing may or may not endure, if you die. I'll tell you why, as I've learned this in my journey of blogging then writing books. I've set things up, so my heirs inherit my copyrighted works, whether they want to try to make money from them or not. An online friend asked 'What now?' after he saw I'd published my book. By the way, he said he's not going to read it (even though he's is in it), or he might 'burst an artery or three.' (Not all your friends will be a fan of your books). I did send him the parts where he's mentioned and he thought it was a fair assessment, neither embellishing, nor demonising.
I'm going to answer some of the 'What now?' in this blog post. Finally, my memoir, is ready to publish (as print-on-demand) and e-book. A project taking two years.
Last night, I tweaked the cover. I also converted to an EPUB for the ebook. The print book format stays as a PDF. I've noted down instructions as I did things (yet again), so that I can write a guide for those navigating this daunting process. |
Xanthe Wyse('Zan-thee Wise'). Disclaimer: the author of this blog is not an expert by profession and her opinions should not be taken as expert advice.
Archives
March 2024
Categories
All
|