Will try keep this short as I have a pile of stuff out on my bedroom floor (sorting) and there is an open home tomorrow.
After a three-year battle, I finally won against Accident Compensation Corporation (ACC) for a lump sum payment for my mental injury of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). I'm not going to go into detail in this post, as I haven't even read the doctor's report yet. Although it is satisfying that the doctor who assessed in my favour used to work for ACC. After seeing me on a 'good' day, at my 'best.' After years of therapy.
I felt overwhelmed, burnout with low mood today. I didn't make it to work today after two weeks annual leave. I'm not going to detail here why I am so stressed (other than linked to my Dad dying recently).
I talked to a doctor today and she said she could issue me a medical certificate but that won't change the stressful circumstances linked to the bereavement. She suggested trying to get back into a routine, which includes my part-time job. I spent most of the day in hibernation, emerging for a walk in the evening.
In this blog post, I would like to highlight aspects of my annual leave.
I am currently sorting my minimal possessions, preparing to move, as the house (not my house) is on the market. I came across a printed copy of a blog post from a deleted blog from around 2008 (15 years ago). The blog was when my name was a pen name (now my legal name).
Only a few snippets of my writing survived.
I wrote the blog post when I was diagnosed with 'treatment resistant' depression and generalised anxiety disorder (later changed to bipolar 1 disorder and post-traumatic stress disorder, PTSD).
My memoir, Bipolar Courage: Are You Sure You're Not Autistic? is FREE to download as ebook/kindle until 8 November 2023.
I've given away over 600 copies of three books with spending just US$10 per book total, separate campaigns. I'm currently doing a promotion and my book is am number one in three categories simultaneously for free ebooks. They are fairly small categories and rankings will drop after the promotion but hey.
Can you tell there is a big orange blob in the sky of this painting? Yes, I accidently put orange in the sky but fixed it. The great thing about painting with acrylics is they are very forgiving and changes can be made. It's in the area of the cloud haze (which I added back in).
Disclaimer: the author of this blog is not an expert by profession and her opinions should not be taken as expert advice.