synchronicities are magic

This might be a bit disjointed as my brain is getting tired after an intense session of hyperfocus working on my memoir, Bipolar Courage: are you sure you're not autistic? That second part is what 'Maxwell' had asked me. The memoir is about our intense connection and the clashes (from our strong-willed personalities plus our diagnoses). It's an unconventional love story.
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No kidding, when I was retyping a very symbolic part of my memoir, listening to music, I got up to where I had mentioned, 'Every Breath You Take' (The Police). Then I realised the song that was playing, was also from the same band. 'Every Little Thing she Does is Magic'. When I was also referencing this painting, Synchronity. Maxwell's painting, symbolising our connection.

Synchronicity, acrylics on canvas by Xanthe Wyse

pattern recognition & coincidences

I love synchnronities. I often paint or write while listening to music. Sometimes, I'll choose a song and listen on repeat. Other times, I'll choose a starting song that fits my mood and let the  songs choose themselves. I rarely skip a song when writing/painting.

Clinicians say my extreme pattern recognition goes with my creative mind which is exaggerated by my diagnoses. The more elevated my mood is (bipolar disorder), the more synchronicities I notice.

Synchronicities are meaningful coincidences with no causal link. A psychiatrist insisted that all my patterns were 'just coincidences.' Well, he was shocked when I published a novel full of 'just coincidences.' I use the patternicity and links as complex layers in my story telling.
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Passionate Intensity is what is left of Synchronicity

Ending a session of hyperfocus 

I don't even know if Maxwell likes these songs as we have different tastes in music. I wasn't sure if I would mention song titles but I think I will mention some, that link strongly to the themes.

I spent hours in hyperfocus tonight, working on the manuscript. The last song from working on the manuscript is 'More than a Feeling' (Boston).

I am up to the final chapters, working on chapter 28. I am unsure whether I will do the two optional chapters or not to make it 30 chapters. Somehow, 29 chapters seems like a strange number. I will need to decide if I can split an existing chapter or write perhaps two shorter chapters to finish.

The manuscript is currently nearly 60,000 words. That's after doing a big cull. I'll need to do my formatting to decide if there are too many pages and more culling is needed. There's a lot of dialogue.

I've been working on this book for nearly 2 years and it reads completely different to my blog posts. It has a storyline, characters, from my advocacy journey as Bipolar Courage.

It's now around 1am and I need to let my brain rest after I've been working hard retyping part of a chapter. I'll have a snack and head to bed. I'll probably end up sleeping in, but that's okay.
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journal entry

I thought I'd quickly type this blog post with something symbolic (full context will be understood when read the book).

I also noted it in my journal. I tend to write a blog post if I want to comment on something more significant to me that isn't really going into my books. I can find it easier to type than to handwrite (see my messy writing below), although scribbling something actually captures my mood state (bigger, messier & colours in felt pen = more elevated).

I only add a journal entry if it's very significant to me, just like I now only write a blog post if it's significant. Most of my energy is directed into the actual book writing.

Journal entry tonight